Kateryna weeps as she recalls how her son, Orest, died in the Donetsk front in 2023. The army called it a "self-inflicted wound," but she refuses to believe it. Orest, 25, was a quiet book lover forced into service despite poor eyesight. After being sent as a communications specialist, he grew withdrawn and sad. Across Ukraine, over 45,000 soldiers have died, but suicides remain hidden and uncounted. Officials call them isolated cases, but advocates say there could be hundreds. No compensation or military honors come to families of those who died by suicide. Kateryna says, "Some died the right way, and others died the wrong way." Mariyana from Kyiv shares a similar pain. Her husband Anatoliy fought bravely but took his life after losing part of his arm. Officials denied him a military burial. "The state threw me to the roadside," she says. Support comes only from online groups of widows fighting for equal recognition. Viktoria from Lviv still struggles with questions about her husband Andriy's death in 2023. Unlike the official story, evidence raised doubts, prompting a reopened investigation. "My war isn't over," she says. Oksana Borkun, who supports military widows, reveals many face stigma. "If it's suicide, then he's not a hero," she laments. Chaplain Father Borys Kutovyi notes even a few suicides are too many and cites vulnerability among recruited soldiers. Olha Reshetylova, Ukraine’s Veterans' Rights Commissioner, admits up to four military suicides happen monthly. She calls for reforms in military psychology and greater transparency, warning some suicides may hide murders. She urges society to honor these soldiers: "They've walked through hell. The warmer we welcome them, there will be fewer tragedies."